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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

i laughed & cried in my sleep last night.
laughed cuz i felt ants tickling around my waist, which in fact isn't, & cried cuz i dreamt of death again.
death again!

have a swelling on my toe, doc suspected it's inflammation around the joint.
thing is, i'm not convinced.
hopefully, it will get better.
i'm limping all the way, i tried to minimize movement but it still hurts.
practically shouting at dad when he tried to take a look, so damn afraid of touching that area.
fine, i cant stand pain.
shucks, i hate to miss attachment when i'm already gonna clear my debt. and next sem gonna be busy busy busy cuz it's holis for those kids.

work from 11to3, requested for early dismissal.
can see from his face that he doesn want to let me go, that's why i dun really like him. not sympathetic enough.
members there kept asking 'oh, what happen to you?' and 'sucha poor thing'
collegues insisted i keep still & not move around, helping to do what i'm supposed to do.
oh gosh, i never felt so much warmth in my workplace before.
when i helped to carry some food from kitchen into my station, one of my collegue commented 'u leg pain still carry. aiyo~'
the feeling is so god-damn nice.
but ryan kept teasing me by limping his way too $%@#&
but guess what!?
i sabotaged some of my collegues to stay for OT and i cant help feeling guilty.
i cant wait till 5pm u see.

dear stayed over last night cuz i won the bet..hoho
i rem hugging him tightly when i wake up from that dream cuz he's the main char in the dream.
and he's a sweetie who knowing that i didn have any cash with me, stuffed 50bucks into my bag and insisted i cab home after work.
muacks darling.

douwant to know.

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