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Sunday, May 28, 2006

over the hedge yesterday, squirrel hammy is simply adorable!
east coast after movie for a coffee session.
dear was meeting his frenx for supper & being the girl who's forever trying to act understanding, we just slack over at coffee bean.
car racing, damn the muscle car!

told him this.
"actually, my close girlfriends are all rather strong women when it comes to love!" and i immediately regret. the moment i used yuanqi as example to prove my point, i realise how wrong this sentence is.
yuanqi should know better ar =P
i'm not smart, i'm not stupid & i'm definitely not strong. but when it comes to love, i fell into the category of 'dumb'. fortuantely for me, i still have a part of me who is forever conscious & had draw a distinct line of under-what-cirumstances-will-i-break-up criteria.
kinda wierd for me to say this here, it's as though as i'll be breaking up with him soon..LOL
only if he fall into the category =)

i felt that most girls just become hopelessly dumb when they fell in love.
i'm one of the girl who kinda psycho myself sometimes to fall sick just so he'll be caring enough to send me home from his place back to mine.
mind you, my psycho power is extremely powerful to myself which i don't know is a good or bad point.
okay, enough of this.

read yuanqi's blog.
she got the bullheart, everything i feels. we tumble our way thru the first few weeks of our poly life trying to make frenx, trying to make suitable frenx. it comes to a point whereby we're so fustrated we ended up telling each other "let's forget bout everything. we're fine with the two of us"
how things turned out this way now is a mystery.
i cant embrace the future, i'm still stucks in past memories.
secondary school days are definitely the most carefree & happiest time of my life. not worrying bout what people think bout you cause u know there's always one who stand by you - ur bestie.
we go by duos then, as mentioned in her blog.
our usual break-time place with our ice milo beside us. chit-chat with each other though i'm-not-at-all-close-with-sam-or-carol. yet they are more than classmates and acquaintance, they're friends.

shall leave the mushy mushy part to tmr with my bestie.
ajisen~

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